That’s the people say about April month, but for me… it’s different..
I remember what happened at the last year ago. Something that make me down, something that make me like really stand alone, something that make cry, a situation where i feel so bad, and very bad, that’s the time when i lost someone. Someone who makes me feel alive, someone who makes me strong, someone who really know and understand all about me, someone who always stand for back up me in the sad or glade, someone who also draws my life with me, mthat’s someone who inspire me, and then i lose him..
I can’t illustrate how i feel that time, but it’s very very hurt.. yeah, it’s very hurt, then driving me crazy. I’m down, really down at all of things what i do, what i think and what i dreamed.
I found him when i was in high school. It’s not like love at first sight that usually people said. But he is the first boy who i loved crazyly. I start my high school with no sense to really do my school activities, it caused that’s not my school which i choose to continued my education, but i just do it like what my parents want. I have new live then, i meet a lot of people who never i know and i meet before. I have new friends, new life, and overall my life was change, that’s ‘there isn’t important thing for me’. I just live, and follow the way whereas i arrive. Nothing improvisation, just like the earth swivell slowly and my dream was go away from me. My life, my friends, my works, my teachers and how they teach, my organization, and also my lesson were totally different with all of my life before. I like a woman with haven’t hope and dream to reach.
I elapse first year without anything of sense, and it’s second year where my story was begin. I called this time with a golden time for me, where i become popular with my ability, it’s like a center of the world„hahaha. I become an importang person in this school, at class, at organization and many others, but i know„ i wasarogan at that time, then i’m so sorry with all people there. When a big responsible come to me, i must do my duties, and because of this, i meet him. He is the man who admire by a lot of person, but not include me. I feel no sense with the men in that place, i think all of them were same. Days become a week, weeks become months, a lot of things were happened, then he can capture my heart. Yeah i fall in love with him.
Since that, we always walk together in sad or glade. We were toughen one another in every condition. A lot of things happen, from a sweet moment untill a bitting moment, but we can through it together. We do that arround three years. Very much occurence happen during that togetherness, and i have deep love for him. It’s very deep love, till i don’t know the reason why i love him, and i just love him because i love him. But now, it just a memory for me and i don’t know, what kind of memory it is. One side i feel glade during has relationship with him, and i’m so sad when i lost him then. In another side, i feel like a stupid girl because of love, i hate him very much when he leaves me.
I’m single, i’m enjoying my life that gift to me. He was married now, and i wish he will always in happynes. In early, i want to delete all that memories, then later i know that memory just can to be forgotten and not to deleted till clear. I will save that memories in my heart, however it’s a part of story of my life. I’m so thankful to him for all that sweet moment, and also to God who brings him to me.
That’s the beautiful years i have. The years when i was in high school and in early of my class in this university.
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